I Had A Dream!

I must say, that when I first began this blog I had absolutely no idea where my life was headed. Nor the extraordinary changes that were about to happen within me. I wasn't even going to share this blog with anybody. It was simply a place to rant and rave and ramble on about things going on in my life. Some place to simply vent. But oh no... This has turned into a truly life saving experience. Now let's get on with it since I am way behind, as always....


As I had mentioned previously I have been questioning my religious beliefs and where I stand with God. Also I have stated previously that I left the church, but not God. I suppose that isn't exactly true. When I lost my Mother due to a medical mishap 1,288 days ago my views did change. I have repeatedly over the past few years said that God hates me. Even though everyone that heard (or read) me say that insisted that it wasn't true I kept on saying it. I do believe deep down in my heart that I knew they were right but I just wasn't ready to admit it, yet. But today I can say that my heart is full of Jesus and the love I have for Him.

Since my last posting I have continued with my mentor and have progressed greatly. But being the stubborn fool that I am, I still needed a sign. Well, a couple weeks ago I had a dream that changed everything for me.

My Mother came to me clear as day. Immediately I noticed her nose looked skinny. So much so it almost seemed to be pinched. She was also wearing her canula that she was not buried in. She proceeded to remove her canula and put in on me. She then took my hand and put her left hand in mine for me to see that she was not wearing her wedding rings, but she was wearing a tiny, very delicate gold band on her pinkie finger. And, her fingers looked like a childs.

Upon awakening, I remembered this dream immediately. I can still, right now at this very moment re-visualize it with every little detail still in place. Not only that, but I for the first time since her death felt at ease. I finally feel as if my Mother is in Heaven with God.

Let me now look at each point of the dream I mentioned and what I believe the message each of them were meant to relate to me.

• Her Hand and the Ring: She is a child of God. Full of life up in the Kingdom of God.
• Canula: This one could be a combination of two things. 1- I better stop smoking now before it's too late. 2- New life being breathed into me.
• Her Nose: The more I think about this, the more I believe that it wasn't just my Mother coming to me. But Jesus Christ Himself came to me in the image of my Mother. Jesus knows me. Jesus knew I needed a sign. Jesus knew I needed my Mother. Jesus is ready for me.

WOW!

Jesus loves me so much He went out of His way to visit me in the form of my Mother. Exactly when I needed them both.

Alleluia! Jesus!! Alleluia!!!


There has already been much more exciting happenings in my life so be sure to stay tuned!