Go To Church!

Yes, of course I am still behind. Soon, I hope to be caught up!

As content as I generally am to stay home alone. My only companions being my two baby cats Samuel Alexander (Sammy) and Sasha Aileen (Sasha). Lately I have had the urge to get up and get out. Although, still, I sit here online alone. Instead of wasting time playing games and/or sulking in the fact that trading has greatly diminished, I have begun really digging into what is most important. My belief and faith in God and making me a better person through and through.

Not surprisingly, I have taken note of various events as of late that I know there was a higher power controlling the goings on around me. For instance, even before I was visited by Jesus and my Mom, on August 1st, my parents would be 50th wedding anniversary, I wanted to go see Mom. It was a drizzly day, almost a perfectly sorrowful atmosphere for spending time in a cemetery. Something, inside of me, was telling me not to go, but I also thought to myself that I always come up with one excuse or another not to go visit my Mom. I hate arguing with myself. Four times I got up and headed towards to door before I finally told myself, "JUST GO ALREADY!" So I did, or at least tried.

I didn't get far before I decided to see if a friend was home and wanted to take the drive with me. As I went to turn to go towards her house the Kia decided it didn't want to turn left. It was like the power steering went out all of a sudden, but I did turn. This was the last straw for me though. I then turned down a side street, which was a caldisac. Again turning left I proceeded to turn around. This time the steering wheel just kept turning. Yes I was turning, but I swear, as God as my witness, the steering wheel turned at least 3 full rotations as if it wasn't completely catching. Well if I hadn't already had enough and decided not to go to see Mom, I would have now. Mind you that to get to where I was I had to make several right hand turns. What happens when you return? All turns are reversed. So I had to make several left hand turns to get home. Well, thankfully, I had absolutely no issues getting home! None what so ever! Somebody didn't want me to go. Somebody was telling me that I didn't need to go to see my Mom. She understands and She loves me.

Now mind you, I have sat home and wasted the entire summer. I have only gone out and enjoyed one summer event, that's it, one. That was on Aug 22nd and by then I had already made some awesome revelations and decided that I needed to change me and my life drastically. I even announced to several friends that I was making that event my last hoorah. And boy oh boy was it ever!

Now comes August 29th and I again feel the imperative need to get out. I mention this to my mentor and she tells me, "Go to church!" To which I replied, "That's tomorrow." Well I went for a drive into the country which is always peaceful and serene. I came across a nice little clearing near a small lake within a reserve so I stopped. But before I got out of the Kia, I noticed that there seemed to be a wedding reception going on. So as to not to disturb the on going party, I decided to leave and go to a beautiful park I know of built upon an old landfill.

For some odd reason, I pulled into the opposite end of this park than usual, but ok, that's fine. I got my iPod out, start up a podcast entitled Bible 101. As I began to walk around the clubhouse I could hear something coming over a loud speaker so I tried to turn up my iPod to drown it out, but I couldn't. Then I looked up and low and behold, there is a wedding mass going on. My mentor did tell me to go to church right? Well, ok then. I walked up onto a bridge that crosses the man-made lake and stood there for the entire mass. It was beautiful!

I have always trusted my mentor with whatever she has had to tell me. I believe her when she says that much of what she says and does is because God has instructed her to do so. Now I see for myself that when she told me to go to church and I replied tomorrow, God was not going to let me out of it that easily!

God surely does have a plan for me. There is noway around it.

God, Lead me as you see fit. I am your child and need your guidance more now than ever. Lead me and I shall follow.

Tomorrow, August 30th, God has much more for me...... again, stay tuned!

Christian Meditation